Ang Buhay ng Mommy

I put Gabby to bed about an hour ago. And since that time, dito ako nakatunganga sa computer, naghahanap ng kahit anong interesting na basahin. Naging habit ko na tumambay sa harap ng pc since I got here in the US habang wala si Mike at nasa dreamland si Gabby. Siguro dahil this makes me feel like I'm still working. This is what I am struggling with right now. I feel like I'm in a rut. At lahat na yata ng friends ko nakwentuhan ko na. The worst part is, I have guilt feelings about it. This is what I wanted in the first place, before Mike and I got married, we agreed that I will stay home to raise our kids. But this is harder than I expected.

It's been a roller coaster for me since I had Gabby. At one time I feel happy that I can stay home with her and watch her grow, at another time I feel really down dahil I feel like nothing is happening with my life.

I guess I just need to live with it. The Lord probably wants to teach me something. I know that this is not going to be forever. This too, shall pass...